Dec 31, 2012

My lasts...


One of many lasts I've documented for 2012... My last shower.  I'm not sure why I feel compelled to document so many different things today.  I guess, because 2012 brought so many changes to my life... and 2013 seems to be bringing many more.  Change is hard!!!

Dec 29, 2012

My Life

My entire life is about to be turned upside down... and I have no one to talk to about it.  Kind of sucks, but it is what it is... and that's kinda really the way it has always been.  So, life goes on: like it or not.  I am strong, and I WILL endure!!! ---- Luckily, there are good things to come...

Dec 28, 2012

InUnDate

Funny thing about days--
they bleed into the night, and repeat
with a vicious symphony of endless
chords that breaks then betrays;

never before, only after

a grand introduction, reduced to a clatter
filled with promises, not fulfilled: 
can't or won't, I don't know which, and
what the hell does that matter?

it hurts, just the same


where the winters grass or the leafless trees
lay naked, shivering in the night
where the light had once been,
dying in the midst of the deep freeze

where the nights bleed into the days

with a vicious symphony of endless
chords that breaks then betrays
as the sound of the frost falls across
my soul; like the sound of glass

falling from careless hands.







Dec 18, 2012

Somewhere



              The clouds beyond the battle cries
         bend the arm of the sun, 
    desperately reaching, 
aimed for the shadows; to lay
    a light over the chill 
           left in the wake of yesterday's rain...
             
                ---the days before lost maps and lies.

Dec 1, 2012

On Diverse Deviations

My life is about to become totally crazy for the next 12 daze as I gear up for the end of the semester, exams and papers and stress!!!  I gave myself permission to enjoy myself today.  The plan?  To lie out in the sun, YES! I said the sun.  It's the first day of December and it is beautiful here in the southeast!!!  So, as many others are hanging Christmas light and spending all of that dough they don't have to spend, I'm lying in the sun daydreaming that I'm on a tropical island with a tropical drink and a frilly straw...and... it felt GREAT! I had pen and paper in hand to write a poem for her like I said I would.... but the damn words just won't come!!!  Oh, I filled up a few pages of journal writing about things such as, there never being any soup in the house on the coldest of days, or, the light bulb always goes out when you least expect it and there's not enough time to change it...and the such; but alas... no damn poem.  :( 

I'm about to get 7 weeks off from school.  I'm hoping in that time I can find my own voice again.  I think my heart swallowed it, but... it is what it is, and well.... my will is good!

I'll leave you with a pic of me in the sun.... and a poem that I'm diggin' today.

Namaste!

 
They Went Home
by Maya Angelou
 
They went home and told their wives,
     that never once in all their lives,
 had they known a girl like me,
                                                    But... They went home.
 
They said my house was licking clean,
    no word I spoke was ever mean,
        I had an air of mystery,
                                                   But... They went home.
                                       
My praises were on all men's lips,
   they liked my smile, my wit, my hips,
    they'd spend one night, or two or three.
                                                   But...